I started this on another blog of mine, but I’m currently moving said blog to a subdomain portfolio for my pictures and whatnot – or pretty much just going to make it a redirect until it expires this December. I’m redoing it now.

I’m going to try to be as honest and detailed as possible, and I don’t know how often I’ll do this. I found the original blog from a random site.

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

   People say I look like I’m supposed to be in high school. Others tell me I get that because of the way I dress, but it doesn’t matter how I dress/act. I just have a baby face. I get along more with 30 year old moms, though (minus my own).

2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?

   Never trying something results in you regretting it and wishing you had tried it, but failing is rather painful.

3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
   

   I think this all depends on where you live and what you’re taught as you grow older. Personally, I would much rather do so many things that I like. I want to have a job that I like rather than one that I don’t like. I have a really hard time doing things I dislike; I can’t understand them no matter how hard I try, so I always have questions that oftentimes go unanswered because people lack the patience to actually “deal” with me and just answer them. I ask a lot of questions, inappropriate or not. I like to know “why” and actually be answered on the why rather than the “just because” – which is quite similar to “because I said so”.

4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

   I think it depends on what is really being talked about and how much a person can actually do.

5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?

   The fact that not many people listen to children. They need to be taken seriously rather than ignored. Otherwise, they could end up like me or worse. Since I was in ninth grade, I’ve wanted to somehow give children a voice. No one who needs to listen to them and take them seriously actually does it. People try to think that such a thing a child says/does is just the one of the darnedest things kids say/do, but how do you know when they’re not? Not enough people are educated on where the line is drawn and the difference between kids being kids and kids actually being serious just like not enough people are educated on what is abuse and what is adequate punishment.

   For example: Not allowing a child to eat dinner and sending them to bed instead is not punishment; it’s abuse. Parents should never encourage a child to skip a meal because that could lead to them having bad nutritional habits in the future. An example future situation that could go along with this wonderfully is that the child could grow up and punish (his/her)self by skipping meals because they’d done various things that they had gotten into trouble for in the past, and it’s the only thing they know. A doctor of mine referred to this as an eating disorder, but it didn’t sound too serious to me.

6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

   Working with animals would make me rich. Or hey, even having my own non-profit charity organization. That’s what I’d really love to do. It sounds like something nice.

7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

   I can guarantee you that, at the moment, I’m just trying to make it to the next hour.

8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
   

   I think I would still be lost, but I can’t really say for sure. One change changes everything; it’s a chain reaction. Also, if it were the average, then it would be what we as people know, thus we wouldn’t really know much of living longer. Different countries have different life span statistics, though, so who knows whether a location in the world already has said life span or smaller?

9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

   Oh, this is SUCH A HILARIOUS QUESTION .
   Next.

10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

    I’m struggling with doing what I know is right and doing what I was taught is right. It’s really hard for me to comprehend various things I’m slowly learning about actually being considered wrong to the rest of the world when I was expected to do such most of my childhood. It’s so difficult that it really does break my heart, and I just sit and stare into space for a while trying to comprehend it because I don’t know how else to react, what to say, what to do, etc. I just don’t know. It’s as if I need to relive my childhood because it was taken from me just to be able to figure out what all was a lie and manipulation and what all, if anything, was actually honest and real.

    Because of this, I’m not exactly struggling with what is surreal and what is my reality, but my mind keeps telling me to picture it as surreal so it doesn’t hurt as bad. I can’t for sure say whether that helps or makes it worse, though.