Today I awoke wondering if it had rained last night or if it was going to rain today. At the moment, neither is a yes answer, and I still feel the same way: bland, blank, boring, eh, melancholy.

I’m not tired; I just feel rather gloomy. I suppose my blue theme doesn’t help matters, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to change anything. I feel as though it should rain today — so I’ll have a reason to feel this way.

My cousin cannot lease my truck, so my dad will be buying it back from me. Kimily messaged me on Facebook with a link to Metrocare Services, a counseling place that can do all sorts of things that regular counselors cannot; they have doctors there and all. I’ll be calling soon. They apparently do a call-and-schedule-for-the-next-day thing, especially for adults with untreated mental illness. That’s me. No more waiting on the experienced counselor I found and really liked who won’t return my emails/calls. Perhaps now I’ll have someone who finds me less crazy — an offline person on my side who can help me more than just telling me to pray to God for my mental illnesses to be taken away.

Because I need offline support.

Lately I’ve been considering sharing my blog with some more family members offline, but then I’d feel as though I’d have to censor myself due to certain individuals who do not share my view on things whom I have not voiced my opinions to regarding said topics (i.e. gay marriage, etc.).

Actually, all of that ^ was posted yesterday.

I have literally no words for the recent events, or anything. First Boston, then the ricin letters, now West, Texas.

No words.

I stopped paying so much attention to the news as of last year, but this event just pulled me back into it. Events like this make news websites act as though they are leeches preying on me. I get sucked in, and I become this blank and dull person wondering, “Why? How?”

I befriend some bloggers on Facebook. If I decline your request, it’s nothing personal. Point is, you’ve probably seen this:

On social media, I’m seeing a lot of things angering me. This is simply my stance, two cents – whatever you wish to call it.

Society’s not getting eviler. Worse things are just happening. The world as a whole is rather disgusting and filled with so much hate, but so many people choose to believe it hasn’t always been this way. Maybe it hasn’t, but there’s always been war, there’s always been murder, we’ve always had this. And those asking where God is in this need to stop. He’s still here. He can’t stop evil. It’s not HIM doing this, that would be the devil. How can you ask where He is and then say you’re praying for the victims? It just doesn’t make any sense.

If you don’t believe in God, you’ve no right to blame Him. If you’re allowed to judge a book by its cover, then you need to rethink yourself.

Stop blaming various countries, groups, etc. when you’ve no clue as to who it could possibly be in particular. You’re just fighting with each other in the end. You’re fighting with your friends, family, etc. To assume every person in a country/religion supports what said country/religion does is EXACTLY like assuming every Christian supports what the Westboro Baptist Church does. Horrendously described analogy, but it’s very true.

Just stop with the hate. I’m SO sick of all of the hate. Always have been. I’m going to start deleting people.

I was pissed off at all of my friends on there picking fights with each other, especially those of the Muslim religion, be it with their friends or their family. Still, I think I made a great point, and I received three four[1. Apparently my dad recently liked it as well.] likes if it means anything.